2017 Year in Review and My 3 Words for 2018

Today is the last day of 2017. Overall, I can say this was a great year. I made many new friends and reconnected with few old ones. Work was interesting as ever, I got to work with Olympians, learned a lot in Canadian court system, got involved in projects with great educators and started editing an interesting Japanese Light Novel. I won’t say it was without a hitch though. This year also had a few bizarre business mishaps as well, but in the end, I survived.

As I look back in 2017, here are the things I learned.

1) Explore your creativity

One of the biggest things I did this year was that I started watercolour painting. I don’t have any previous experience in painting. I just started playing with paints, and my curiosity to do and learn more grew. I found out on Instagram someone was starting #The100dayproject, so I dove in.

Now, I have been terrible at continuing something all my life, let alone 100 days! I have failed many “30 day XX challenge” or “Blogging every day” sort of things. It was never my forte. But I did it. I still can’t believe I painted every day for 100 days.

After that, I was afraid my “painting fever” might be gone, like puff!, but luckily I am still interested. This winter I painted all my holiday cards I sent out to friends and family. Next year, I want to invest in some learning material – might sign up for a class (online or in my city) to brush up on some techniques. I am grateful for all your encouragement and the “tribe” on Instagram where we can ask questions about materials and motivate each other. I am also grateful I found this fun and creative thing I can do. Having a creative outlet and keep making stuff is essential to my well-being.

2) Life is short

I know this is almost too common a lesson, but I keep reminded that getting old means you encounter more losses ever since I learned it when I was in my 20s. We lost several friends and family this year, and I also saw many friends losing their loved ones, especially this winter. I also have many people who are sick, and I could be next, any day.

I know I don’t need to remind you but this is why we don’t have time for unkind or negative people in your life. Instead, I am actively working on spending time with people I actually care. No more phony “We should get together soon”. When I say that phrase, I mean it.

3) Do the things only I can do

In mid-2017, I was a little overwhelmed and had too much on my plates. I was basically doing everything I was asked to do. I was talking to a dear friend and mentioned this, and she casually said, “Well, but those are work anyone can do.” and it resonated with me so much. After that, I used the question “Is this something anyone can do, or is this something only I can do?” as a guideline when I was feeling the pressure to take on something. It helped a lot.

Every year, I pick 3 words for the year. Words for 2017 was FAITH, CREATE and JOY. I am pleased to say that I did quite well this year. I had a faith in everything I did, and I stopped panicking on every little bad thing that happened this year. I knew it would work work out in the end, and it did. I am still here. I have a roof over my head, I have food on the table, I have amazing and healthy family, I have great friends, I have interesting work. And I am enough. I created a lot of things. I put joy on higher priority in my life. I know this sounds so cliche, but I am blessed.

Happiness Jar 2017

Today, I opened my Happiness Jar as well. I’ve been doing this for few years, but it all started from Elizabeth Gilbert’s post.
I have this big flower vase, and every day I will write down something happy or positive thing about the day and put it in the jar.Sometimes I forget to do it, but that’s OK. I also put cards and letters I receive, movie tickets, and other keepsakes as well.Then I open them all at the end of the year. It is so fun to re-read the happy and funny things. This has become my annual ritual, and I highly recommend it.
After I open all the notes, I staple them onto the corresponding date in my daytimer. (I have been using HOBONICHI Techo for close to 10 years). Left one is 2017’s it’s think as I put all the Happy notes and tickers etc, right one is 2018 book, still brand new.

Now, my 3 words for 2018 will be:


MOVE – I was very fortunate to be able to go to Ottawa this fall. I also got outside Victoria few times. Every time I go out, you expend. I want to do more of that in 2018. And my first trip of 2018 will be to Japan in January for a film shoot.

STORY – One other thing I got really keen on this year was radio/podcast. I also started volunteering at a local community radio station. I’ve been thinking a lot about why I’m drawn to this medium and I think the hint is the STORY. I love storytellings too. This is just a spark, and I don’t have a clear answer, but I hope to find something by following this keyword in 2018.

COMMUNICATE – I always find 3rd word is the hardest to decide. This one is a bit of combined keyword, as initially I wanted to say WRITE, or LISTEN or OUTPUT. I want to do more writing and expressing myself in 2018, but I also want to really pay attention to listening.

I anticipate a big change in 2018 and I have no idea how my life will be affected by it. But I feel ready.

I want to thank you for reading this, and please share your post if you have a similar “3 words” or “year in review” post.

Thank you and Happy 2018!

1 Hour Photo, Story of an extraordinary life, told in extraordinary way

“Everybody has a story”, this is what producer Donna Yamamoto said when I first met her last year when we went to see Tetsuro Shigematsu’s Empire of the Son for the second time. I am a big believer of that statement. Empire of the Son was a story of Tetsuro’s dad, Akira. 1 Hour Photo, which we saw this past weekend, was a story of Mas Yamamoto, Donna’s dad.

Shortly after his own father’s death, Tetsuro started spending time an hour every Monday with Mas—“Mondays with Mas”—He recorded 36 hours of interview, story of Mas’ life.

1 Hour Photo starts with the word projected on a screen. Nikkei. Person of Japanese decent. Tetsuro and Mas are both Nikkei, although in different generations. When Tetsuro needed a big enough house to accommodate his aging parents, Donna offered her home to Shigematsu family. There, Tetsuro found Mas’ coffee mug with the Japan Canada logo on it and he became curious.

Do you remember those times? When you used to take rolls of film to a photo shop to have them developed. Often they could take up to a week. Can you imagine?! Then eventually, 1 Hour Photo services started popping up. Still, hard to believe it took an hour to see photos you’ve taken, isn’t it?

Mas was an owner of one of those 1 Hour Photo shops. But it wasn’t until he was in his 50s that he started the business. Until then, Mas has gone through a lot of hardships and heartbreak.

Tetsuro is an exceptional writer. I fell in love with his talent when I saw Empire two years ago.

In 2015, I attended NAJC (National Association of Japanese Canadians) AGM and conference in Vancouver, and I won the pair of tickets to Empire of the Son donated by Donna. I didn’t know anything about the show, nor knew who Tetsuro was. I distinctly remember thinking it must be some sort of music show, based on the poster. I was wrong. About a month later, we went to see the show at The Cultch, and it nearly destroyed me. It was poignant, heartbreaking, and beautiful. I had also lost my father few years back, so I related to Tetsuro’s story of losing Japanese father. We’d return to see the show again in 2016 and I also have a book version right by my desk every day.

1 Hour Photo is a little different. It’s a story about Tetsuro’s friend’s dad. If you think that might be tricky, to tell someone else’s story, you are not alone. But, as my husband put it, Tetsuro has the gift for adding context to almost any story. From 36 hours of interviews, he has hand picked stories in Mas’ life and shares with us what it means to have a well lived life.

When you tell a story of any Japanese Canadians in BC, it is not possible to do so without mentioning the internment. Just like 22,000 others who were forcefully removed from their homes, Mas was also sent to an internment camp (in Lemon Creek). Using the projections on the screen, Tetsuro shows us all the camps in BC…18 if you count self-supporting settlements, 21 if you count road-camper projects. I shed my first tear at this point, when Tetsuro mentioned how efficient Canadian government was at this internment thing. Of course— they’ve done this before, with the First Nations people.

Mas meets his first love there —Midge Ayukawa, who eventually goes on to become a great scholar and well known feminist. They eventually go their separate ways and become happily married and each have their own children, but I felt this story was definitely an important part of Mas’ life, and needed to be included.

After the war, Mas goes on to various extraordinary adventures and you cannot help but marvel at his amazing life. One of his daughters is Hon. Naomi Yamamoto, MLA. Tetsuro also shares footage from the time Naomi made a motion to offer apology to Japanese Canadians who had been called enemy aliens and interned, including Mas. Her speech is moving and very emotional.

I am not Japanese Canadian and none of my own family has experienced internment. Yet I feel it’s so important to remember the injustice, no matter who was involved. It is also sad that this topic is still relevant, 75 years later.

You also cannot talk about this show without mentioning the amazing miniature props by Susan Miyagishima. From the miniature model of the Shigematsu/Yamamoto residence, to bunk beds in internment camps, to a miniature microphone, her creations are absolutely gorgeous.  There is also a musician, Steve Charles, who accompanies Tetsuro on stage with beautiful music and occasional commentary shared between the two. The entire show was a sensory delight and wonder—visually, musically, and emotionally—and I have nothing but awe for the team who made this a reality.

From the talkback after the show

Everybody has a story to share. I am grateful for Mas for sharing his.

1 Hour Photo continues until October 15th at The Cultch.  Do not miss it.


Collective identity – on NAJC AGM 2017

I have just returned from Ottawa attending National Association of Japanese Canadians (NAJC) AGM and conference as a delegate from Victoria Nikkei Cultural Society(VNCS). NAJC holds the AGM and conference annually in different cities. Victoria was the host city two years ago in 2015 and I was one of the planning committee. Last year was in Calgary, and this year, Ottawa.

NAJC was initially founded in 1947 as National Japanese Canadian Citizen’s Association to represent the welfare of the Japanese community. They changed the name to current National Association of Japanese Canadians in 1980, when the redress movement started. As many of you know, Japanese Canadians were interned during the Second World War, even though most of these people were Canadians – most of them never been to Japan nor spoke the language – yet they were thought to be enemy aliens and forcefully removed from their homes and sent to internment camps. Their properties (houses, fishing boats etc) were sold without the owners’ consent to fund the internment itself. You can learn more about this shameful event at Nikkei National Museum or NAJC website.

In 1988, the Redress Agreement was signed by the NAJC and Prime Minister Brian Mulroney. Since then, NAJC have been supporting Japanese Canadians as well as advocating for human rights for other visible minorities.

I am not a Japanese Canadian. I immigrated to Canada in 1998 and I am a permanent resident of Canada. My children, on the other hand, are definitely Japanese Canadians.

When I first attended NAJC conference in 2014 in Vancouver, I almost felt like I didn’t belong, because most of people there were Japanese Canadians. To be honest, I felt like an outsider. Us Japanese don’t learn about internment in history class in Japan, and I barely knew anything about the redress movement.

However, I have been active in local Nikkei community last few years, and I have gotten over my own insecurities and came to the terms with being the Japanese in JC community. JC community has always been welcoming, and no one has ever told me “You don’t belong here because you are an immigrant”. It seems I was the only one concerned about not being Japanese Canadian. Now, I think I am part of the Nikkei community as a person who call both Japan and Canada our home.

Annual conferences are always a great chance to meet new people from other parts of Canada and catch up with old friends. I don’t need to remind you how big Canada is, and there are many different Nikkei organizations in Canada. Some are “local chapters” of NAJC, some are simply cultural organization, such as my local group, Victoria Nikkei Cultural Society (VNCS). VNCS is a cultural organization, so we welcome anyone who is interested in Japanese culture as members.

This year’s conference was held in magnificent Canadian Museum of History. This was my first time in Ottawa, but I have throughly enjoyed my stay there (despite the 29-30 degrees heat!). What a beautiful venue.

Two things that was personally significant at this year’s conference for me were Japanese Canadian Artist Directory and discussions on new immigrants.

Japanese Canadian Artist Directory was officially launched at the AGM. I have always been a huge art supporter. I know so many Japanese Canadian artists, actors, writers, filmmakers etc. whom I have tremendous respect for. My son is also an aspiring Japanese Canadian actor, so this is close to my heart. I myself also write, and recently started painting, so hopefully one day I can register myself as an artist. I was so excited when I first heard about JCAD, I had immediately offered to translate the website into Japanese, as I also know many immigrant Japanese artists – musicians, dancers, and visual artists – they deserve to be listed as well. We are still in the planning stage of the translation project, but if you are ever interested in helping, please let me know. Congratulations to Susanne Tabata of NAJC, Emiko Morita from Powell Street Festival Society (PSFS) along with Bryce Kanbara and John Ota of the Art Committee, Japanese Canadian Cultural Centre (JCCC) for the launch.

Another big topic at this year’s conference was Shin Ijusha (new immigrants). This year marked the 75th anniversary of the Japanese Canadian internment (in Victoria, we held a special luncheon to honour the internment survivors- you can see photos by Shari Nakagawa here), and while the generation age, we have more and more post-war new immigrants (Shin Ijusha) to Canada. NAJC is grappling with the idea of offering services to this growing population, and there were several panels on this topic.

One such panel was titled “The Present – Being “Japanese” and “Canadian”; How Both Identities Have Influenced My Life”  This panel wasn’t necessarily about new immigrants, but it had variety of interesting people on the panel – Brigadier General Steven Moritsugu, who is the highest ranked Japanese Canadian in Canadian forces, chef and author Caroline Ishii (she has written about this panel here, and yes, food is a HUGE part of it! ), Lisa Ann Nchii’wat Meawasige-Kertesz who has Japanese/Ojibway/French Canadian background, Interpreter Sumi Nakamura, who has interpreted for Canadian Prime Ministers as well as Japanese Emperor and Empress, and Reverend Yoshimichi Ouchi, minister who has immigrated from Japan.

Identity is such an interesting topic for me and I have always been fascinated with it. How do we decide who we are? I identify myself as Japanese even though I have been living in Canada for close to 20 years, and the time I spent in Canada is getting longer the time I spent in Japan. This panel was so interesting as everyone shared their stories on their identities.

Another session was specifically about new immigrants, and Kenta Asakura, an assistant professor at Carlton University who has many years of experience working with LGBTQ youth, and Mariko Niwano, young immigrant mother shared their stories. Canada is a very accepting country when it comes to LGBTQ rights, but how do Asian Canadian LGBTQ youth feel about coming out to their parents? Also as a young mother, Mariko shared her struggle in finding information for new immigrants and shared her concern about raising her children as Japanese speaker. This was also very interesting panel.

After that, I joined a breakout session with a group of people to discuss what can NAJC offer for Japanese immigrants. As Mariko mentioned, language barrier is huge for new immigrants, so the first thing we all agreed was to have information for Japanese immigrants in Japanese, and to do that we suggested to add Japanese pages on NAJC website. We also talked about the divide between Japanese immigrants and Japanese Canadians. As I mentioned, I am active in JC community, but I know many Japanese immigrant friends who are simply not interested in participating in JC organizations. These immigrants tend to form their own groups (be it mommy’s group or hobby group) and they prefer interacting in Japanese. Some of the people in my breakout session mentioned they want to have immigrants in their local nikkei group – but not many people are interested. Again, I believe the language is a huge barrier. I know for a fact many of my Japanese immigrants friends feel more comfortable talking in Japanese – it’s just so much easier.

Personally, I think, if NAJC or any Nikkei community wants Japanese immigrants to participate in their programs and services, they need to offer some sort of values for them.  I am part of Nikkei community, because I enjoy interacting with nikkei people, but I know I am a minority. For new immigrants, social services such as municipal information offered in Japanese, or Japanese language schools are surely attractive, but there are many organizations already offering such services in the big cities. Vancouver almost has everything – from Tonari gumi(Japanese Community Volunteer Association), Japanese grocery stores, Buddhist temple, church, numerous hobby groups to Nikkei senior centre. Same for Toronto. Toronto has Japanese Social Services that offer services to Japanese people. Also, issues and needs of immigrant change as we age as well. As a person in her 40s and speak fluent English, I don’t need a play group as my children are older now, nor Japanese speaking group, but I envy Vancouver and Toronto for having senior care services, as I want to help the elderly in our community. Of course, as I grow even older myself, it’d be nice to have some sort of services for elders. But these are infrastructure problem.

In my work, I mostly work with Japanese international students, but these days, I find myself working with more and more Japanese immigrants who need help navigating their complex lives in Canada. With the increase of Japanese immigrants,  issues they face are diversifying. I have more immigrant clients going through divorce, or who are single parents. Mental health support is needed. I hear domestic abuse is increasing as well.

Japanese immigrants think Japanese Canadians are different from them. Sure, we are not exactly the same. We come from different background and history.  Yet, as people who have Japanese background and making Canada home, I believe we should “develop a collective identity without erasing the differences between us” – aptly put by Kenta Asakura.

I hope us immigrants and Japanese Canadians can work together and create a better community to support each other.

Finally, my sincere gratitude to Ottawa Japanese Community Association for hosting us. I look forward to continuing the conversation and seeing everyone again soon.

Thinking about thinking

Last few days, I’ve been thinking about thinking. I was listening to James Altucher’s podcast interview with Sara Blakely, the founder of Spanx. She is well known for her story of constantly using failure to learn lessons. Her father would ask at dinner table, “What did you fail in this week?” and if they didn’t have anything they failed at, he’d be actually disappointed. He helped her frame it that failure isn’t about the outcome. For them, failure is about not trying. She says if something doesn’t turn out or ends up embarrassing herself, it’s not a failure. Failure is not doing something out of fear. I related to it very much. She also said she goes out of her way to embarrass herself. If too much time go on without embarrassing herself, she feels “Oh, I gotta do something” —and she’d sing in an elevator when other people were there. etc. I liked the idea. Embarrassing yourself is a good exercise to put yourself out there and be vulnerable. (Yes, this is a huge keyword for me) – She also mentioned the importance of being vulnerable. Another reason I love her.

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